WHO AM I?
It turns out that I am a healer. I would have never imagined that this would become my life’s purpose.
All the talents that I have honed throughout my life, I now lay in front of you who may benefit from them.
My name is Selah although I like to use Hiraeth as my pen name. I began using this nickname years back, quite unaware of the implications in its meaning (way before I consciously embarked in my spiritual path). Hiraeth can be translated as a deep longing for a person or thing which is absent or lost; yearning; nostalgia; a sense of incompleteness you feel when youโre acutely aware of something missing in your life.
Now I know, Hiraeth is my soul, I could sense it in an subconscious level. My soul. which always was, in Selah. Now that I see her, I am Hiraeth – in Selah
What I went through can be described as the deepest suffering a human being can endure. Yet it turned out that it was a blessing in disguise (a massive one at that -both the blessing and the disguise!)
My life was turned upside down overnight. In the blink of an eye I lost everything that had given meaning to my life – and I’m not talking about material things or even relationships or a job. I lost my very identity. I, who had always been so confident and outgoing, creative, passionate and driven. All of a sudden, I could hardly leave my bed. The capacity for joy vanished, as well as the ability to feel love. Everything was dark -including my vision; blurred andย dull colours filling my days.
My ability to create disappeared. My stamina, my drive, my capacities. Overnight I became almost inert.
The journey was long and the belief that I would never return to be the person I’d always known was dominant almost throughout. If that “thing” wasn’t going to kill me, I would eventually kill myself, I was sure of that. Yet something kept me going, kept me trying, fighting for life to return.
One day there was a bit of progress. So infinitesimally small that almost I didn’t notice. But it was enough to open that door to the possibility of healing. Now I contemplated the idea of perhaps sticking around.
Years of painfully slow progress, with many dips along the way, eventually led to the beginning of true recovery. When I was well enough to be able to hold a conversation for about half an hour (which left me exhausted), I implemented some changes in my life. It was still very difficult, but compared to that which I had endured, and with the strength that I had developed, it was so much more manageable that what had come before it. At least enough to land me where my continuing healing was going to be aided by the implications of a soul connection entering my life. Funnily enough this connection was going to cause another type of suffering, it would trigger pain of unknown proportions -yet it never felt life threatening and as I overcame the obstacles brought about by this connection, the other side of my healing (the life threatening type in its quality and intensity) accelerated.
And so transformation happened. In a way, it is still happening. Because I have come back, only bigger, better, and still greater, every day, every hour.
I have found myself, but this time really, truly. The essence of me, my Hiraeth @Selah, the one that I always intuited but never consciously acknowledged; the one that transcends life on earth, the healer.
And so I am here for you, to accompany you along your journey. I now know and understand what life here on Earth really is about, and I can’t do anything else with my days than to support others in their own quest.
Head over the the About You page if you so feel guided to learn in which ways I might be of assistance to you.